Lost for Words

At first there was relief
Now there's only sadness
I didn't have time for grief
I didn't think it'd be a mess.


By now it should have faded
Now there should be no more
It should have left me jaded
But still remains at the core.


Running from my shadow,
Running from my dreams
To the next plains I must go
These illusions I must leave.

Fast Forward

I haven't written in this blog for so long just because I don't know how to talk about it. It seems so many things, changes have happened in the past several weeks. I feel like I'm in a whirl. The things that I've foreseen happening a year from now or even some years from now suddenly happened, and mostly on whims.

I'm just glad some of these changes aren't as devastating as I anticipated them to be. I find it difficult to describe how it feels, that's why I couldn't write about it. But I'm holding up very well, plus all these other changes make me feel like I'm in a rollercoaster -- both scary yet exciting.

I still obviously still struggle with what words to use, but as Ginger Cookie said, maybe what happened was necessary. Strangely, my belief remains intact despite all the odds against it, but from now on, I'm leaving it all to destiny.

One good thing that came out of this is that I think I've finally learned what it means to let go and to just go with the flow. For now, I'll just wait for the magic to happen in front of me...