Bye Pink

I was finallly leaving after three fustrating years and I sorta felt empty for not feeling any tug of sadness upon my departure. I felt that I didn't have any attachments there and I was only too happy and excited to finally be leaving and starting anew.

I said goodbye to Mr. Guru and just as comfortable as my first conversation with him was some three years ago, saying goodblye was just as comfortable, with the easy chatter and banter between old friends. 

When he said "Bye pink" I was immediately brought to tears and I realized that I have had some attachments after all. Meeting someone like him is a rarity and then I thought, no one will ever call me pink again :(

It was followed by some more hreart-wrenching goodbyes and I realized that I have made more friends than I thought after all. Although I'm leaving with some severed ties, the bridges I've built far outweigh them, and these I'll lways take with me.

Hanging Out with the Kids

I spent the Holy Week at home. My nephews from Baguio spent the most part of the week with me, and it was nice to spend some time with them, especially since I haven't seen them for months.

I was surprised at how behaved they are now from the last time I saw them. I taught them how to play Scrabble and was surprised at how fast they learned. It was just funny how the younger one acted so much like my little brother when we were still kids. Like father, like son!

They immensely enjoyed the swimming pool, which I haven't tried myself. Again, I have this thing of losing interest in something once I've achieved it. They were ALWAYS hungry haha..but they were also so sweet :) Not a day went by that I didn't get a "Thank you, Tita" (Thank you, Auntie).

We all even ended up sleeping on my bed, which was kinda crazy, but again, it was sweet of them :)

Although I didn't get to do what I planned for the Holy Week, I really had a fun time with those two cuties :)

Back...I Hope!

I don't know why I lost the zest for blogging. Not that there isn't anything to say. In fact, there are lots to be said, especially with my mind that never stops thinking and musing.

Well, mostly maybe because I've been too busy and too stressed out in the past months that I've had no energy left for jotting down the thoughts that go around in circles in my mind.

I've moved to the new home, but still not feeling settled -- maybe due to the absence of a reliable Internet connection and cable TV, which are my only diversions from the everyday routine.

I guess my home's nice but it's lost its appeal on me -- or maybe my excitement over it was just put out -- because of the builder's below-par workmanship and lack of commitment. Two months after my move, they still have pending work to deliver -- and yet, they've already gotten the complete payment. Well, lesson learned. I'll never employ the services of that builder again.

That aside, the job has been more fun and challenging recently, especially with my project approaching crunch time. It's weird how I get fired up only when the work piles up.

I've also recently joined this charismatic community, and I must say I'm really having a grand time. For once, I actually look forward to attending something that's religious in nature. I guess it's what my soul has been craving for -- some much needed spiritual nourishment. I seem to have been deprived all this time and I'm just savoring every bit of divine inspiration that I can get.

I believe I'm happier now because of my new spirituality. I sorta have a different outlook on life now, and I finally found a piece of the answer I seek -- on what the purpose of my life is. I just seem so full of positive energy now.

I also quit my freelance job of almost a year for a number of reasons. I guess it just means it's time for me to move on to other things. After all, growth won't happen if we just stay in one place.

With all the changes in the past months, I'm quite surprised that Infinite remains perhaps the only constant in my life. What that means, I don't know, but it brings me  a positive vibe so I guess it's good.

I hope I can get back to blogging again. I know and feel that a lot of good things will come to me this year so it would be great to have every win, surprise, and joy digitally imprinted for all time.

Daydreaming

I was elated to learn earlier this week that my condo unit was ready for turnover. I accepted it a couple of days ago and was instantly overwhelmed by all the work that it entailed -- the renovation, furniture shopping, decorating, packing, moving, utility transfers, and the list goes on...all while I'm trying to juggle work and the semblance of a social life.

I met with the builder today and the plans for the design/layout are already in place. Now I just hope I can make it happen.

I'm just so happy to have reached another milestone in my life. Somehow I knew about all of this from since I was a kid. I knew everything would turn out alright. Now they're turning into reality one by one. As I daydreamed of this years ago, images again popped into my head as I looked out the window of my bedroom-to-be. However, this time  I have only a few more months to daydream before I finally get the real thing.

No more dealing with nasty landlords or landladies or making do with apartments and rents. Dreams do come true, and I'm proud to have made this dream come true. Not that I didn't want or need help, but I knew it would be more fulfilling in the end if I could do it all on my own -- just because I would know I gave it my all and wasn't slack about it.

As this lap of my race almost completes, it's time to think of new goals to reach, and new things to daydream about...