What a Week!

I just had a hellish week that was full of worry and distraction. I had to miss work the whole week, which meant I had used up the leaves I was supposedly planning to use for when EccentricBoy comes to visit next year. But oh well, at least I had leaves to use. The company laptop I tried to borrow came kinda too late, but anyhow, it was still good in case things didn't get resolved sooner.

But once again, I've proven that the heavens really do love me just as Miss Ruth said, and yep, they gave me exactly what I need. Well, at least that's what my hunch tells me. I didn't follow my gut feel the last time I had a strong hunch and look where it got me. Anyway, this time, the hunch is of the good kind.

I keep thinking what the purpose of this week was. I should've been more productive despite missing work. I could've worked on my other projects. I could've gotten more rest, but I was so distracted I couldn't really focus on anything. And I was also too worried to get much rest.

Anyway, the only purpose I could think about  was that the "situation" gave me and my brother some time to bond, and maybe allowed me to appreciate him more. We can't be any more different than night and day, and despite the spats we had during the week (Nothing new), I realized that we could handle our differences more maturely now. Same goes for my sis-in-law, who was also there for me. As Miss Ruth said, we're just  different, but she's really alright.

Anyway, I hope that this week's ordeal has ended for good and that life can go back to normal next week.

Satisfied

Love this song...thanks to the Fox!

Highlights

I'm finally taking some time to write sometthing on my blog, which has been very much neglected these past months. There were so many things that I wanted to write about, but I could never find the time.

The past several weeks have been pretty much a whirlwind --  another rollercoaster ride (yeah, I'm getting quite fond of using rollercoasters as metaphors), one that is fast, scary, and exhilirating at the same time. I've learned and am learning so many things. For once, a string of positive things have been coming my way.

Here's my attempt at giving you a rundown of these things, that - if i had more time -- would've merited their own blog posts.

Shamanic Sitting

I think it all started with this. I went for a shamanic sitting online over a month or so ago. Again, I did it mostly for curiosity. I've never heard about such before my friend (the shaman) told me about it. A shamanic sitting is really for healing the soul. The shaman went into a trance while playing the drums. I, on the other hand, listened to the drums while meditating.I originally thought the drums might sound creepy (thinking of tribal drum playing from Lord of the Flies or some movie like that), but it was actually very calming.

After the shaman came back from the trance, she told me about the "movie of my life" that she watched. She told me how she retrieved parts of my soul that I've lost and how my spirit was cleansed and reborn. She also said my power animal was a big silver she-wolf.

I honestly didn't think anything would come out of this. I did it just for the experience, and it was a good and interesting one.

Well, fast  forward to some weeks later, and I realized how much better, lighter, and happier I felt. I seem to be more positive about things, much more enthusiastic about what I have, and much more confident of myself. So I guess  my spirit is indeed getting healed in one way or another.

Own Venture

I'm trying my hand at my own business -- not your typical or conventional type of business, but a business nonetheless. This has kept me quite busy and very excited. It finally lets me see the other side of things, and this is like something I can count on in the long-term. I'm not even in a hurry for it to take off. I'm just glad that I've already sown the seeds.

Soul Mates

I really feel so lucky to have met Mickey Mouse. He's been teaching me and mentoring me on the new venture a lot, and why he does it for free still boggles me. Everything, is, of course, very much appreciated :)

Mystic Lady said that he and I knew each other from a past life (1900s in Europe...how interesting!). Well, I didn't find that too surprising. It just made me realize and understand why I felt comfortable with Mickey Mouse from day 1 and why it felt like I've already known him for some time. By the way, before any of you go off thinking other things, Mickey Mouse and I have a working relationship. By definition, a soul mate is someone you've known in a past life and doesn't necessarily have a romantic connotation.

When I told Mickey Mouse about this, he alo seemed in agreement. He said that it must be the reason he's trusted me since the start. Mickey Mouse and I also share a lot in common and we can seem to talk for hours, so I guess there's some truth to the soul mate thing. Well, it's just nice to have met a soul mate in this lifetime -- a real treat for my curious mind :)

STC Event 3

We recently held the third event (2nd for this year and 3rd all in all). I consider this a major accomplishment since a year ago, we were nothing. A year ago, I have given up and lost all interest. Now, I'm just so happy that we seem to be steadily moving forward -- small, baby steps, but sure ones. I also am very happy, grateful, and excited to be working with people who share my passion and enthusiasm for ourr cause. It's a delightful surprise how willing they are to share in the work and how excellently they do their parts. Things can only get better...as long as the negative spirits stay away :P

Going with the Flow

Going with the flow never felt so good. I finally learned how to do it and how to be comfortable with it. I'm loving myself so much that I can't care less how the things that I can't control turn out. It still baffles me how I hold steadfast to my beliefs and how they still feel right -- even more so now than before -- but I'm now less attached to them.

I'm really excited to see what the future holds. It seems my perspective on things have made a 360 turn. I can just feel the positive energies in my veins -- almost literally! I know my cynical self is still lurking somewhere, but for now that self is taking a backseat. Now, I just feel assured that the future will be better than great :)

Lost for Words

At first there was relief
Now there's only sadness
I didn't have time for grief
I didn't think it'd be a mess.


By now it should have faded
Now there should be no more
It should have left me jaded
But still remains at the core.


Running from my shadow,
Running from my dreams
To the next plains I must go
These illusions I must leave.

Fast Forward

I haven't written in this blog for so long just because I don't know how to talk about it. It seems so many things, changes have happened in the past several weeks. I feel like I'm in a whirl. The things that I've foreseen happening a year from now or even some years from now suddenly happened, and mostly on whims.

I'm just glad some of these changes aren't as devastating as I anticipated them to be. I find it difficult to describe how it feels, that's why I couldn't write about it. But I'm holding up very well, plus all these other changes make me feel like I'm in a rollercoaster -- both scary yet exciting.

I still obviously still struggle with what words to use, but as Ginger Cookie said, maybe what happened was necessary. Strangely, my belief remains intact despite all the odds against it, but from now on, I'm leaving it all to destiny.

One good thing that came out of this is that I think I've finally learned what it means to let go and to just go with the flow. For now, I'll just wait for the magic to happen in front of me...

Casual Encounters

Contrary to whatever people might think of me, I really don't think I'm a people person. I'm really shy so I try to stay away from crowds and definitely away from strangers. That just makes me uncomfortable.

Of course, my officemates and friends would be the first ones to disagree, as I'm pretty assertive at work and just laugh at all their jokes -- corny or not. Well, maybe that's my alter ego coming out, for I know I won't survive in the corplorate world if I remain shy and timid.

Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is that I don't hang around people a lot. I don't meet new people a lot, and I'm usually not the first to strike up a conversation if I were seated next to a stranger, making me seem "suplada" (stand-offish).

So whenever I have unusual or unexpected interactions with people, I tend to question them. Like why did I meet that person? Why did I get along with that person? I don't meet a lot of people so I don't really get along with new acquaintances a lot either. It's then not very often that I ask these questions.

This is one instance when I'm asking those questions. I don't pay attention to the people around me when I go out --  to the mall, restaurant, or whatever. I don't remember faces, and I don't like to look or stare because for some reason, they sense me staring (even when they have their backs to me...weird!) and that just makes for an embarassing situation.

Anyway, Glimpse is someone I remember seeing in church. Glimpse must be the only stranger I  bump into every now and then -- well, not really "bump" into, but someone I remember from church and someone I actually recognize. Hmm, that's new for me because as I've said, I don't pay attention to the people around me. And I haven't really seen Glimpse upfront - mostly just out of the corner of my eye. Glimpse seems to be giving me glances, too.

Of course, it's just my curiosity going on overdrive, because for a stranger, Glimpse is becoming quite familiar. And so again, I ask why?

Stubborn or What?

It's funny how we seek answers about things and yet become prejudiced about the answers we get. Why do we seek answers if we can't accept them anyway? If we will still insist on what we believe in anyway? Is it because of our need for confirmation of the things we believe in? Is it because we need assurance that we're on the right path?

My friends know me for my curiosity. For some reason, people whom I meet can tell that about me right away. Maybe it's because I ask too many questions? I can also be "makulit" (persistent, insistent). Some people get annoyed that I ask too much while some -- and I think there are more of this -- find it amusing and are only too happy to indulge me. I guess the latter are mostly the people who like to talk and to answer questions, and I'm only too happy to listen...and to ask some more. It's fascinating how I do absorb a lot of the information I'm told. MindReader just mused (incredulously LOL) about how I remember everything -- maybe it's more of a female quality LOL.

Anyway, I've been doing a lot of asking, listening, and absorbing. But I've sorta been getting somewhat contradictory information, and now the problem is understanding. Understanding which of this information is true or valid. I believe, too, that I've been getting bits and pieces of the answers I seek. While they do make sennse and my head's giving a vigorous nod, there's a voice from my gut feel that's screaming "No!"

Although I've gotten some enlightenment from a friend about the difference between intuitive and logical thinking, I'm still struggling to separate the two. Logic steps in so quickly that I don't even have time to process what my intuition is saying. Logic is able to rationalize it so well, but why is my gut feel still struggling to be heard above the loud reasoning of my logic?

I wonder if I'm just being stubborn to accept the obvious, or if my intuition is somehow justified in not wanting to shut up and stay mum. They say that in time all the puzzle pieces will fall into place, which will lead to an understanding of everything that is being and has been. So then I guess only time will tell. Until then, though, the silent war between my logic and intuition shall continue to rage.

My Past Lives

I was talking to an energy reader, and she was telling me about my past lives (among others, of course). From my understanding, an energy reader is a type of psychic who is able to make predictions based on your aura or by receiving messages from the other side. Someone like John Edward of the show Crossing Over with John Edward.

Well, this was the first time I got any sort of insight into my past lives. MissMetaphor and I have always wondered about our past lives and how we could learn about them. This was the closest I got. Who can ever vouch if these are true or not? Still, I find them interesting, so here goes...

Village Caretaker

Let's name  the reader Mystic. Well, she said that I have a deep-rooted desire to help people in my spirit.

Apparently, I worked in ancient Egypt as a village caretaker. I was a woman shaman who was a healer and caregiver to my tribe. Mystic said I was a true healer then, that's why I now have healing energy in me, and I make everyone feel good when I am around them (How true? LOL).

An Italian Child

It seemed that in the 1300s in Italy, I was the daughter (a little girl) of a pretty well-to-do Italian family. I was pictured walking and being led by a family, with a woman holding my hand. I was wearing soft animal clothing. I was picking flowers along the way when I fell off a cliff.

The reader said this is why I'm not fond of high places, and true enough, I have a fear of heights.

Member of a Greek Temple

Mystic said I was an active  member of a Greek temple in the 1400s. 

Well, I'm not particularly interested in Greek mythology, but I do find it fascinating.

Rockin' with Paramore

I dunno why I'm getting lazy to blog these days, especially when I supposedly have the time since I've just finished a project. Hmm, maybe it's partly because I just wanna keep things to myself or also maybe because I've been yappin' so much with MindReader; I get drained of the energy to yap some more on my blog.

Anyway, I was at the Paramore concert last week. It was great, though Araneta Coliseum would've been a better venue. There were no seats at the MOA (Mall of Asia) Concert Grounds, so everyone was just standing and milling around. That made it hard to get a good view no matter where you positioned yourself. Well, at least they had good monitors or whatever those things are called.

Callalily was their opening act, and though I'd normally like them (one of the few Filipino bands I kinda like), I didn't pay much attention to their performance. They didn't sound good live. Their instruments sounded like fingernails scratching a blackboard, and was that even singing? Kean does sound quite okay on the recorded stuff but really more like shouting when he was supposedly singing live -- kinda tuneless. Oh well, his "cuteness" didn't help at all. Anyway, they didn't get much response from the crowd who was just anxious for Paramore to come on already.

Haley's performance was superb, and though she was kinda screaming a lot, at least she was stil singing. I was just kinda disappointed that they didn't sing Hallelujah and We are Broken and also that Josh Farro wasn't there. Anyway, they did sing a lot of their popular songs, and it made for a great rockin' time.

As an epilogue so-to-speak, I'm just fascinated and qute amazed that even taxi drivers and tricycle drivers knew about Paramore and their songs. Not to be discriminatory or anything, but I just didn't see Paramore as the type of band who would appeal to such a wide range of audience. I pegged them to be a band that would appeal to the angstsy music lovers like myself :P

I was just browsing through my Manifestation Blog yesterday and realized that going to a Paramore concert was one of my "wishes". Well, that's one wish already come true.

Health Conscious

The company I work for is focusing on wellness programs this year. Ever the employee-oriented company, they believe that they'll save more (at least when it comes to HMO costs) by helping their employees stay healthy. Of course, this also helps employees become more productive.


This year, they're putting even more emphasis on staying healthy, espcially since annual physical exams for last year showed obesity as the number one health problem for our company. Because of this, a series of seminars and consultations with Intellicare doctors and Nestle nutritionists were conducted a few weeks ago. The seminars were real eye-openers for me, correcting a lot of the wrong notions I had about food and diet. We also have a month-long access to fitness classes for free.


In addition, they conducted blood tests to get our cholesterool levels and sugar counts. This was part of a contest the company's holding. It's called the Biggest Loser/Biggest Gainer, where employees who've lost (for overweights) or gained (for underweights) the most would win. There are cash prizes and even a trip for two for the winners. Nestle and Intellicare will be back in the middle of the year to check on everyone's progress.


This has introduced a new challenge for me, which is to eat healthy without starving myself. I need to lose only 7 Kgs., which is very doable, and I'm happy and excited to be seeing my progress week after week. I"ve been seeking a new challenge or a new project, and eating healthy makes for a very good project.


I will not diet just to lose weight; rather, my goal is to change my eating habits. So far, so good. I've realized that I don't have to limit myself to boring and tasteless food just to lose weight. I can still pretty much eat whatever I want but in moderation and by choosing healthier alternatives if possible.


I've quickly gotten into the habit of looking at labels and counting calories. I'm challenged to be creative with the food I eat, especially since I easily get tired of always eating the same food.


I just feel so lucky with the company I work for. Not only do they take care of our bank accouts; they also take care of our well-being. As FoodLover says, where else can we find a company that teaches and encourages us to be healthy and even reward us for it?