Can't Break the Spell

After years of trying to break free, I'm still stuck to what seems to be a curse that was placed on me. After several attempts of trying to get out, I'm again here, being tempted by the thought of an nth chance to try to make things work.

Why does it seem easier to put myself through more torture than to let go? Why is it so hard to just stop caring and stop trying? With people vowing their support yet again, I can't help being blinded by over-optimism again.

I hope for everyone's sake that it works this time. But I can't help thinking that it will just be a repeat of past events and so the cycle starts again.